Scars on my soul, I can’t hide ‘em no more
Tears in my eyes when I’m closin’ the door
Said you was real, but you lied to the core
Now I be ridin’ with pain in the Porsche
Lost too much, I can’t go back again
Pray every night, but I’m stuck in my sins
Shootin’ for peace, but I’m losin’ my friends
This for the ones I won’t see again
Mama told me that the streets don’t love you
Seen my dawg in a box, had to hug you
I was 15 with a heart full of rage
Now I’m grown, but I still feel caged
Gun on my lap, demons in my brain
Tryna stay clean, but I walk through flames
Ops in the city, gotta move like a ghost
Whole lotta pain in the words that I wrote
They used to laugh when I dreamed too loud
Now the same ones wanna see me now
Sayin’ they proud, but I feel the fake
I know they smile, but it don’t translate
Told my lil’ bro stay up out that life
But I know he might slide if it don’t feel right
Tryna save souls, but I’m still in the dark
You can’t heal when you movin’ with a broken heart
Scars on my soul, I can’t hide ‘em no more
Tears in my eyes when I’m closin’ the door
Said you was real, but you lied to the core
Now I be ridin’ with pain in the Porsche
Lost too much, I can’t go back again
Pray every night, but I’m stuck in my sins
Shootin’ for peace, but I’m losin’ my friends
This for the ones I won’t see again
They say pain make a man, so I must be grown
I done seen too much, now I trust no phone
Gotta watch what I say, they be tappin’ the tone
Even my thoughts ain’t safe at home
I talk to God but I feel so distant
Pop another pill just to numb what’s missin’
Told my girl I’ma change, but I’m stuck in my ways
All this trauma turned love into rage
Got a name off the songs, but I came from the struggle
Still got a Glock, I can’t move without muscle
Numb to the losses, I don’t even cry
I just stare at the sky like, “God, why?”
If I make it out, I’ma change who I am
But I still got pain they won’t understand
If I said I’m okay, then I’m probably lyin’
This for the ones who keep fightin’ and dyin’
YN_Meeky