You told me to believe it...
And I did.
But I shoulda believed what the pain been showin’ me…
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You told me to believe it — and I believed it
You the only one who had my back… besides these demons
The scriptures I write — that’s just the difference
In what I believed in… and now? I don’t believe them
Everything great — it start with a lie
Everything that end — gon' end with a cry
I’m not focused, and I can’t take all the blame
That’s just the pride that be runnin’ through my veins
I been tortured — silent tears from rotten dreams
Peelin’ back onions of trauma I ain't never seen
I can’t wake up — feel like I’m stuck in the in-between
Lookin’ in the mirror like: “Who gon’ rescue me?”
Tryna teach you how to mirror that reflection
But you too busy tryna decode the lesson
Understanding things that ain't meant to be handled
So we leave it in God's hands, light a candle...
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There’s no way around pain
Only through it — gotta dance with the flame
Make friends with the devil 'til you numb in the brain
Feel the rot in your spirit like a slow decay
My bones achin’ from the weight of this sin
We animals — sheddin' skin to begin again
Had to leave some people in the rearview
'Cause they loved the old me, but never saw the clear view
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It's a life cycle — and we moonwalkin’ like Michael
Smilin' through the trauma just to keep it from the Bible
Check the schematics — every family got an attic
Where the secrets live loud and the damage is automatic
It’s gettin' harder to trust — yeah, I clutch
Pain in my grip, heart cold like a crutch
Fake love feel worse than a coffin
I’d rather bleed out than be loved outta option
Now I’m scribblin’ scriptures in the booth
Tryna baptize my soul in truth
I don’t run from my demons, I break bread
Shake hands with the past, then break legs
You say move on, but I move through
Had to outgrow the me they all once knew
I ain't perfect, but I’m real as it gets
And when the pain talk loud, I ain't pressin' mute…
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There’s no way around pain
Only through it — gotta dance with the flame
Make friends with the devil 'til you numb in the brain
Feel the rot in your spirit like a slow decay
My bones achin’ from the weight of this sin
We animals — sheddin' skin to begin again
Had to leave some people in the rearview
'Cause they loved the old me, but never saw the clear view
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It’s madness… that’s why I clutch
Not fear — just memory, and not trust
Every tear I cried turned to ink on this page
If pain’s the teacher, then I’m the sage…
There’s no competition...
MoodyLoe
