Lost to Addiction but Winning

Verse 1)
Yo, back in the day, I was lost in the haze,
Heroin grip tight, runnin' through my veins.
Livin' with dudes who swung fists like rain,
Bruised up and broken, chasin' that pain.
My grown daughters? Never knew my face,
Kept 'em away from my dark, twisted space.
Then I met him, clean and steady, no games,
Never raised a hand, helped me break the chains.
We got sober together, built a life from the ash,
Love in the quiet, no more crash and dash.
(Chorus)
I hate you, but I love you, tangled in this mess,
Your choices cut deep, left me in distress.
Drug habits creep back, shadows in the night,
You were my light, now you're out of sight.
Hate you, love you, can't stand what you do,
Packed up and left, but the heart stays true.
(Verse 2)
Apartment our castle, peace in the walls,
No needles, no bottles, just us standin' tall.
He treated me right, no bruises, no fear,
First time in forever, felt safe right here.
But then my girls came, grown and knockin' the door,
Never lived with me, 'cause I was too poor.
In spirit and soul, wrecked from my past sins,
They moved in chaotic, stirrin' up winds.
Tension built quick, arguments fly,
Daughters drivin' him crazy, pushin' him high.
(Chorus)
I hate you, but I love you, tangled in this mess,
Your choices cut deep, left me in distress.
Drug habits creep back, shadows in the night,
You were my light, now you're out of sight.
Hate you, love you, can't stand what you do,
Packed up and left, but the heart stays true.
(Verse 3)
One day he snapped, grabbed his bag from the shelf,
"I'm takin' my clothes, keep the rest for yourself."
Apartment, the furniture, all yours to hold,
But the love we built? Turned ice cold.
Walked out the door, left me cryin' alone,
With my youngest beside me, feelin' so thrown.
Thought that was it, end of the ride,
But he circled back, flipped the script on the tide.
Kicked us to the curb, no mercy in sight,
Me and my baby, out in the night.
(Verse 4)
Streets swallowed me whole, relapse hit like a storm,
Heroin callin', back to the norm.
My daughter bounced, couldn't take the fall,
Left me solo, echoin' empty halls.
Now I'm spittin' this rhyme, heart torn in two,
Love for the man who once pulled me through.
But hate for the ghost who turned on the switch,
Your drugs and your choices, left me in the ditch.
Sober dreams shattered, but the fire still burns,
Hate you, love you—when will I learn?
(Outro)
Yeah, this the story, raw from the vein,
Love and betrayal, drivin' me insane.
Hate you... love you... can't let go...
But I'm risin' from ashes, steal the show.

rap female vocals