[Verse 1]
Ash in the carpet
Burn holes in my brain
Used to chase that quiet
Now I’m choking on the pain
Every night, same movie
Same room, same sweat
Clock digits all blurry
But the fear still sharp as regret
[Chorus]
These nightmares coming in hot
Like the fever I thought I lost
I’m clean but I’m shaking a lot
Paying back every hit it cost
If this is what quitting’s got
I’ll walk through the fire, through the rot
Yeah the ghosts all taking their shot
But I’m wide awake, they are not
[Verse 2]
See my old self laughing
Bag in his hand like a crown
Hear that “one more, one more”
Like a choir pulling me down
Mom’s voice in the hallway
Door chain rattling slow
I reach out, can’t touch her
And I hate what I used to know
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
Cold sweat, jaw locked
Heart race, can’t talk
Shadow on my chest
Says “you were my best”
I tell it, “you’re a liar
I burned you in the fire”
But it crawls back, crawls back
Every time I close my eyes
[Chorus]