[Intro]
Got my teeth on edge
Hands won't stop that shake
Clock on the wall says midnight
But my brain says stay awake
[Verse 1]
Used to chase that cloud
Till it chased me back
Every promise I buried
Crawled out through the cracks
Now I'm sweating through the bedsheet
Like it's August in my veins
Every shadow on the ceiling
Got my old face, same shame
[Chorus]
These nightmares coming in hot
Like sirens in my chest
Like every hit I ever took
Won't let my body rest
I'm done with the poison, done with the rock
But it still knows my name, still picking the lock
Quitting that dope but it claws when I sleep
These nightmares coming in hot, too deep
[Verse 2]
See my mother in the doorway
Eyes all glass and red
Hear my brother say he's proud of me
Then he morphs into my dealer instead
I'm running down hallways
Doors welded shut
Every "last time" that I whispered
Written big across the walls in rust
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register]
I poured it down the drain
Still taste it on my tongue
Clean hands, dirty memory
Every night, round one
I ain't going back, can't go back
So I breathe through the burn, through the flashback
[whispered vocals]
"If you wake up, you win"
I keep saying it again, and again
[Chorus]