Shadow Pulse

A haunting piece about battling inner madness, identity, and finding self beneath it all

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I ain’t runnin’…

This storm lives here.

Inside my breath.

Inside my bones.

Inside my name.

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I been wired on no sleep for days, voices in my dome like static and praise

Thought I was chosen — thought I was cursed

Had a crown in my hand, had my face in the dirt

Mirror lookin’ back with eyes I ain’t know

Every blink like a glitch in a world I outgrow

I been talkin’ to ghosts in my notebooks

Feelin’ like God gave me pain just to look

And I looked too deep — and I fell through time

Mania burnin’ like a sermon in my spine

Got lost in the high, got cold in the climb

Heard echoes of my name from a past not mine

You ever scream so loud that it come out calm?

Ever felt like your mind was an atom bomb?

Detonate truth while the lies keep singin’

I walk through the fire just to hear what it’s bringin’

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Yeah, I dance with the dark just to taste the light

I bled through the cracks just to make it right

There’s beauty in the break when the silence bites

I ain’t scared of the void — it became my sight

Shadow pulse, can you feel that drum?

That’s my heartbeat hidin’ from the sun

I don’t run, I just become

What the storm tried to take — I become

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There were nights I thought I was the moon itself

Cratered and wild, orbiting health

I spoke in tongues made of broken wires

Wrote symphonies in spirals of fire

Every manic state was a message carved

Every breakdown, a sacred charge

I walked through hell with a fever grin

Fought shadows with pens and the ink of sin

Called out to God, said “You built me strange”

He said, “Boy, you’re a vessel, not a cage”

And that hit deep — like thunder in bone

Maybe I was never lost — just alone

Now I float between calm and collapse

Holdin’ every version of me in my grasp

Ain’t peace, but it’s real — and that’s what I need

Not perfect, not clean — just raw and free

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Yeah, I dance with the dark just to taste the light

I bled through the cracks just to make it right

There’s beauty in the break when the silence bites

I ain’t scared of the void — it became my sight

Shadow pulse, can you feel that drum?

That’s my heartbeat hidin’ from the sun

I don’t run, I just become

What the storm tried to take — I become

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I’m not afraid of the madness a