Back to AA

Woke up with shame in my chest again

Another night I swore would be the end

Mirror’s cracked, and so am I

Running out of ways to lie

Friends say I’m fading, I don’t disagree

This isn’t who I meant to be

Lost my spark and my self-control

Trading pieces of my soul

Can’t keep pretending I’m just fine

I'm breaking down one drink at a time

It’s back to AA for me

Time to get the help I need

Sick of the person I’ve become lately

Tired of the weight, tired of the fight

Chasing peace in a bottle every night

I miss the me I used to be

So it’s back to AA for me

I hurt the ones I love the most

Turned quiet rooms into haunted ghosts

Said “just one more” too many times

Now I’m drowning in my own white lies

So here I stand, stripped of pride

But maybe that’s where hope can hide

It’s back to AA for me

Time to get the help I need

Sick of the person I’ve become lately

Tired of the guilt, tired of the shame

Of lighting fires I can’t tame

I want to heal, I want to be free

So it’s back to AA for me

There’s no shame in reaching out

Even when you're filled with doubt

I’ve got scars, but I’ve got dreams

And maybe grace is in between

Yeah, it’s back to AA for me

Time to rewrite this legacy

I’ll face the wreckage, piece by piece

I’m not who I was, but I’m still me

Step by step, I’ll start to see

Who I can be

It’s back to AA for me