Mirror

I look in the mirror, try to meet my own eyes

But all I can focus on is what I wanna hide

Everyone says I’m beautiful, but they don’t understand

How it feels to live inside a body you can't stand

I fake a smile, wear it like a disguise

But under the surface, I’m barely alive

I look in the mirror and don’t like what I see

Everyone says I’m beautiful, but I just see my weight

It’s like I’m drowning in a voice that sounds like me

I don’t know how to escape this spiral of thoughts I hate

I wanna believe them, but it’s too late

I'm stuck in a war I didn’t choose to wage

Clothes on the floor, nothing ever fits right

I cancel my plans, dim all my lights

Scroll past perfect faces, wishing I could be

Anyone, anything — just not me

They say, “Be kind,” but I don't know how

To love myself when I’m breaking down

I look in the mirror and don’t like what I see

Everyone says I’m beautiful, but I just see my weight

It’s like I’m drowning in a voice that sounds like me

I don’t know how to escape this spiral of thoughts I hate

I wanna believe them, but it’s too late

I'm stuck in a war I didn’t choose to wage

If I could quiet the noise, if I could breathe

Would I finally feel something like peace?

I wanna heal, but I don’t know where to start

When every thought pulls me apart

I look in the mirror and try to believe

That maybe there’s more than the shame that I see

But I’m still drowning in a voice that sounds like me

Trapped in this spiral, begging to break free

I wanna believe them, I want to be okay

But I’m still at war with myself every day

Maybe someday I’ll learn how to stay

And see my reflection a different way