Not Healed, Just Trying

[Verse 1]
I still flinch at every quiet
Check the locks three times at night
Say a prayer I halfway mean
Hope it counts if I still fight
All these thoughts I can’t untangle
Staring holes into the wall
If you’re there
I need you honest
I am tired of feeling small
[Chorus]
I’m not healed
Just trying
Hands up high
Still shaking
If this is faith
It’s fragile
Held together
Barely hanging
I don’t need all the answers
Just a reason not to quit
I’m not healed
Just trying
Please don’t let go of this
[Verse 2]
I still curse beneath my breathing
When the plans all come undone
Fold the questions into corners
Hide them where they touch the sun
I don’t talk about the nightmares
But they’re naming every fear
If you’re light
Then cut straight through them
Say you haven’t disappeared
[Chorus]
I’m not healed
Just trying
Hands up high
Still shaking
If this is faith
It’s fragile
Held together
Barely hanging
I don’t need all the answers
Just a reason not to quit
I’m not healed
Just trying
Please don’t let go of this
[Bridge]
I’ve been angry
I’ve been silent (oh)
I have slammed the door on grace
But I keep a little doorway
Just in case you meet me halfway
If I fall apart tomorrow
If I never get it right
Would you sit inside the wreckage
Stay with me through one more night?
[Chorus]
I’m not healed
Just trying
Hands up high
Still shaking
If this is faith
It’s fragile
Held together
Barely hanging
I don’t need all the answers
Just a reason not to quit
I’m not healed
Just trying
If you’re there
Don’t let this slip
[Outro]
Not healed
Just trying (just trying)
If you’re there
Please stay in it with me

rock, Slow-burn emo rock closer, male vocals. Clean guitars in the verses, roomy drums and gritty bass building toward a cathartic final chorus. Big, strained chorus with stacked harmonies on the hook; last repeat adds octave vocal and crashing cymbals that ring out into a lingering feedback tail., emo, emotional