(Title: The Girl Who Forgot How to Speak)
(Verse 1)
Spanish was a lullaby, the first world that I knew
Before the system took the keys and the sky turned grey and blue.
Eight years old in a stranger’s house, silence was my shield
A speech disorder took my words, a wound that never healed.
They say you don't forget the ride, like a bicycle in the park
But you can lose your native tongue when you’re fighting in the dark.
I was almost mute, just a ghost within the walls
Waiting for a name to find me in the foster hallway halls.
(Chorus)
And now you tell me "think before you speak"
Like my voice is something "unattractive" or something "weak."
But you don’t know the miles I ran to find a single word
Or the "vomit" of my heart is just the sound of being heard.
I’m not a "roundabout" girl, I’m a survivor of the hush
So if my story overflows, I’m not gonna feel the blush.
(Verse 2)
My adopted mother corrected me, she polished up the stone
She taught me how to carve a life I could call my own.
I pride myself on how I talk, the intellect I found
I built a tower out of language on this holy, broken ground.
So when I "over-explain" or connect the dots too fast
I’m just making up for every year I was told I couldn't last.
It’s not "annoying," it’s a victory; it’s a miracle of sound
The girl who forgot how to speak is finally being found.
(Bridge)
You didn't believe the Spanish, you didn't believe the pain
You tried to tell me how I felt while I was standing in the rain.
But I have a Bachelor’s in my hand and a fire in my soul
I don't need a man to tell me how to keep myself in control.
If my "extra-curricular" talk is too much for your ears
Maybe you're just threatened by the strength of all these years.
(Outro)
Go ahead and take your nap, go ahead and "get at me later"
I’m busy being my own hero, my own creator.
I’ll speak when I want.
I’ll say what I feel.
Because the girl who was silent...
Is finally real.
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