I wanted To Keep Waiting

You said you loved me,

Told me what you wanted me to hear,

To bring me closer to you,

Then you distanced yourself from me,

And all that you said we would be.

I gave you time,

Then made excuses for why you didn’t show up.

I told myself maybe he’s just testing my love,

But I came to realize,

That I was just lying to myself cause

True love doesn’t keep you waiting on the shelf.

I wanted to keep waiting,

Hoping you would change.

But I’ve learned from my younger days,

That their is no guarantee that waiting for someone when they don’t let you see,

Effort in return.

I knew even through my tears,

I could not betray myself,

By staying where I never felt wanted.

I wanted to stay,

But I stopped listening to my heart,

And chose to use my brain.

You mentioned you would change,

Said you’d do better,

Then I waited another month or two,

Till I realized it wasn’t true,

Because things just stayed the same.

I felt like I was just a pawn in your game.

A game I don’t want to play.

I feel stuck in a never ending story.

I’m just supposed to sit around

While you figure out,

The next move you will make.

It’s a risk I’m not willing to take,

I wanted to keep waiting,

Hoping you would change.

But I’ve learned from my younger days,

That their is no guarantee that waiting for someone when they don’t let you see,

Effort in return.

I knew even through my tears,

I could not betray myself,

By staying where I never felt wanted.

I wanted to stay,

But I stopped listening to my heart,

And chose to use my brain.

I will always love you, baby,

But you can’t expect me to wait around for a maybe.

I wanted to keep waiting,

Hoping you would change.

But I’ve learned from my younger days,

That their is no guarantee that waiting for someone when they don’t let you see,

Effort in return.

I knew even through my tears,

I could not betray myself,

By staying where I never felt wanted.

I wanted to stay,

But I stopped listening to my heart,

And chose to use my brain.