I don’t make friends no more
Ain’t like them no more
I been lonely since I lost the old me, yeah
Tryna ride by myself but the devil came along
He wanna run with me, but want the death of me
Tell me, when does all this end?
Ain’t got no friends, I been tryna hide
Ain’t nowhere I belong
I done prayed on concrete floors, bled through my sins
Looked God in the face like “why you keep lettin’ me live?”
These streets raised a ghost, I been driftin’ in the dark
All my angels keep on fightin’ just to hold my broken heart
They don’t see the pain behind these eyes
They don’t feel the weight I try to hide
Everybody love you till you fall, then they vanish in the night
So I walk alone with my shadows and this fight
I don’t make friends no more
Ain’t like them no more
I been lonely since I lost the old me, yeah
Tryna ride by myself but the devil came along
He wanna run with me, but want the death of me
Tell me, when does all this end?
Ain’t got no friends, I been tryna hide
Ain’t nowhere I belong
They said healing take time, but my clock broke more than twice
I done died in my sleep, woke up still fightin’ for my life
If pain was a weapon, I’d be fully armed
But I wear my scars like scripture on my arm
Ain’t no love in the city when you real like this
Ain’t no trust in the system when you feel like this
Had to learn that peace don’t come from the crowd
It come when you talk to God out loud
Every loss was a warning, every tear was a seed
I been growin’ through the pain, even still bleed when I believe
If you knew what it cost me just to stand here and breathe
You’d never call it weakness when I fall to my knees
I don’t make friends no more
Ain’t like them no more
I been lonely since I lost the old me, yeah
Tryna ride by myself but the devil came along
He wanna run with me, but want the death of me
Tell me, when does all this end?
Ain’t got no friends, I been tryna hide
Ain’t nowhere I belong
Every loss carved a story in my skin
Every scar got a name I buried within
I been runnin’ from the ghosts of who I used to be
But they follow me, whisperin’ “come bleed with me”
So if you see me ridin’ solo in the rain,
That’s me talkin’ to God through the smoke & the shame
Ain’t no halo on my head, but He still call me home again
And maybe I was never meant to fit in....