Addiction

Swear I seen hell behind hotel doors,

Tried to pray, but my knees hit the floor.

Tired of fallin’, tired of cryin’,

Tired of dyin’ and callin’ it survivin’.

So I—

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I keep tryna climb, but the chains still tight,

Dancin’ with the devil in the coldest night.

Swear I lost myself in that poison kiss,

But I still wake up like, “God, what is this?”

Same old love, same old pain,

Different face but the lies stay the same.

If this is love, then love's gone numb—

But I ain't the one, nah, I ain't the one.

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I used to cry into carpet burn floors,

Bleedin’ from both knees, beggin’ for more.

Sellin' peace of mind just to pay for war,

Hands too dirty to even pray no more.

Lookin' in the mirror like, "Who dis is?"

Hollowed out heart, still scratchin’ that itch.

My mama don't call, my baby don't smile,

I been dead inside for a long-ass while.

Tried to quit, then I slipped, then I lied,

Laid next to a man with a gun by his side.

Didn’t care if I lived or I died,

As long as that fire got me high.

They said, “Girl, you too far gone,”

But I still be writin’ like a new day gon’ dawn.

Covered in pain, but I kept the crown,

Even if I had to wear it face down.

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Tell me, what’s love if it comes with chains?

If it looks like hurt and it feels like shame?

If it steals your voice and rewrites your name,

Then baby that ain’t love, that’s the dope game.

I traded my body, my time, my soul,

For a high that kept leavin’ me low.

But even in the gutter, I still heard the sound—

A lion inside me tryin’ to break out.

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I keep tryna climb, but the chains still tight,

Dancin’ with the devil in the coldest night.

Swear I lost myself in that poison kiss,

But I still wake up like, “God, what is this?”

Same old love, same old pain,

Different face but the lies stay the same.

If this is love, then love's gone numb—

But I ain't the one, nah, I ain't the one.