**Verse 1** I carved your birthday in the paint Of every wall I own So even when I turn the lights off I’m never alone I hear you in the plumbing In the static on the line Every stranger’s silhouette Is just your shape in disguise I don’t sleep — I patrol the dark Like you might call my bluff Like you might knock at 3AM And say you’ve had enough **Pre-Chorus** They tell me this is madness That love’s not supposed to bruise But sanity’s a luxury I already chose to lose **Chorus** Say my name backwards Spin it like a curse If I can’t have your heaven I’ll settle for your worst I’ll wear you like a fever I’ll sharpen every spark If you won’t let me in your light I’ll live inside the dark You think you left me shattered You think I broke in two But broken things are sharper And I still cut for you **Verse 2** I keep your voicemail on repeat Till the words don’t make sense It’s not about the meaning It’s about the evidence That you were real, you happened You breathed against my skin Because if I admit you’re gone Then nothing’s ever been I taste you in the back of my throat Like blood I can’t spit out You call it “overreacting” I call it “figuring it out.” **Pre-Chorus** You said I need to let you go Like it’s a simple trade But you don’t amputate a limb And walk away okay **Chorus** Say my name backwards Pretend it isn’t mine Tell yourself I’m crazy For not respecting signs I’ll trace your steps in city blocks I’ll memorize your street If love’s a game of hide and seek I refuse defeat You think this is obsession You think I’ve lost control But I’d rather be possessed by you Than exorcise my soul **Bridge (unraveling)** I don’t want peace. I don’t want grace. I want the look That was on your face The night you said “You’re all I need.” Now I replay it Till my ears bleed. **Breakdown (volatile, breathless)** I am not a phase. I am not a scar. You don’t get to heal And forget who we are. If you erase me I’ll rewrite truth. I’ll haunt every room You try to move through. **Final Chorus (manic, collapsing)** Say my name backwards Scream it in your sleep Even if you hate me At least it means you keep Some part of what we were Some fracture in your chest If I can’t be your future I’ll be what you repress **Outro (quiet, cracked)** You call me unhinged. Maybe I am. But at least I never Stopped loving you. ---

Say My Name Backwards