[Verse 1]
Black dress
Midday
Sun sharp on the stones
You were already cold
While I rehearsed my lines again
Flowers in my fists
Wrists shaking like branches
Every word I never said
Clawing up my throat
[Pre-Chorus]
I trace your name
In the marble dust
Mouth full of prayers
Lungs full of rust
[Chorus]
I should’ve burned the sky to tell you
I should’ve torn my fear in two
Every silent night I held back
Now it all comes crashing through
If there’s a door beyond this darkness
I’m begging it opens on you
I’ll spend a lifetime screaming your name
Until the afterlife lets me through
[Verse 2]
[low vocal register]
Your laughs haunt the hallway
Ghosts in the picture frames
I sit where you used to sit
Arguing with empty air
High school tickets in a drawer
Edges curled like we were
I wore your favorite shirt once
Then folded it like a sin
[Pre-Chorus]
I talk to the room
Like you’re running late
But the echo answers
“You were too afraid”
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[whispered vocals]
If you could see me now
Would you even want to?
Hands raw from the headstones
Knuckles split on truth
[guttural vocals]
I choked on every chance
Now I’m drowning in the past
If heaven has a waiting room
I’ll be the last
I’ll be the last
[crescendo]
I’ll carve my heart
On every gate I find
“Let me pay in pain
For all I left behind”
[Chorus]