Do I Really Love You?

I see the cracks within my heart today

It feels too broken to keep love at bay

I wonder if I ever held it true

Do I really love You like I always knew, Jesus?

The weight of my wrongs

They pull me down

A drowning soul beneath the ocean brown

Unworthy of the light that You still give

I stumble wondering why You let me live, Jesus?

Do I really love You, Jesus? or just pretend

Lost in a maze that seems to never end

Searching the corners of my heavy soul

Am I the one who’s lost the way to whole

I cry at the mirror

Can’t meet my eyes

The questions scatter like starlit skies

You call me

Still I hide in my shame

Do I deserve to even call Your name, Jesus

But somehow Your grace wraps me like a song

Even when I’ve done everything so wrong

You whisper through the silence and the doubt

Love isn’t earned

It’s what You’re all about, Jesus

Do I really love You, Jesus? or just pretend

Lost in a maze that seems to never end

Searching the corners of my heavy soul

Am I the one who’s lost the way to whole