Dad

Tonight I’m up unable to sleep

Knowing that my thoughts are weary deep

I’m kind of lost in a way

Feeling lost not okay

I have so many memories , good and bad,

some are happy but most are sad

But Here’s a question whats a dad ?

They say that dads love you ,that they care a lot

That they call u daddies girl and what not

They say that dads will always be there and look out for you

But mines never been there ,this isn’t true

Dads know your birthday and remember your age

My dad doesn’t even know me and that fills me with rage

Dads are supposed to be there when thier little girls get married

But my dad ...he wasn’t even worried

From lunches with dad to daddy daughter dances

You don’t show &I’m left crying while everybody glances

From having to answer your prison wall calls

Or from staying up late crying out my eyeballs

I get tired I just want a dad

We walk in the stores and see people with thier dad

I think to myself all this great stuff I have had

But I can’t shake this thought about

How bad I want my dad

I want my dad to act right

I want him to grow up

I want him to make me trust him again

I want him not to get locked up

But like I said once before

I’ve done been sad about my daddy I ain’t doing this no more