Still Checkin My Email

Verse 1
Alarm clock rings but I ain’t got nowhere to go
Coffee tastes like regret in a chipped old mug, cold
Everybody I know got a badge or a shift
I’m the odd one out, man, I don’t fit
They talk about overtime, Fridays paid in beer
I nod and fake a smile, but it hits me right here
I hate how small I feel just sittin’ around
Like the world’s movin’ fast and I’m stuck in neutral now
Pre-Chorus
I tell myself it’s just a season, it’ll pass
But that voice in my head keeps talkin’ trash
Chorus
I’m still checkin’ my email like it owes me a break
Heart beatin’ heavy every time my phone shakes
Feels like I’m fallin’ behind while everyone’s runnin’ ahead
Tryin’ not to drown in the things goin’ on in my head
Yeah, I hate who I am when I feel this low
Still checkin’ my email, hopin’ someday it says hello
Verse 2
I knew a guy inside that place, thought that meant a shot
Thought this time was different, thought maybe I was not
Just another “thank you” wrapped in corporate regret
“Good luck in the future” — man, I ain’t over it yet
I stared at that screen like it was personal
Like every word it typed just cut me to the bone
Had my hopes hangin’ high on a maybe and a prayer
Guess I was just another name they didn’t care
Pre-Chorus
I shut the laptop, but it’s burned in my brain
That feelin’ of losin’ when you never played the game
Chorus
I’m still checkin’ my email like it might change its mind
Like maybe they’ll realize they left me behind
Feels like I’m fallin’ apart while I’m actin’ okay
Put on a brave face just to get through the day
Yeah, I hate who I am when I feel this low
Still checkin’ my email, hopin’ someday it says hello
Bridge (Blues Breakdown)
Mama says, “Son, don’t measure life by a clock”
But the bills don’t care if I’m givin’ it all I got
I ain’t lazy, I ain’t broken, I just need a chance
But right now all I got’s this six-string and these hands
Chorus (Last, More Emotional)
I’m still checkin’ my email with a drink in my hand
Tryin’ to believe there’s a bigger plan
I ain’t worthless, I ain’t done, I ain’t lost for good
Just tired of feelin’ misunderstood
Yeah, I hate who I am when I feel this low
Still checkin’ my email… hopin’ someday it says hello
Outro
One day I’ll clock in, tell this story with a grin
Say “damn, that was hard,” but I survived back then
Till that day comes, I’ll keep holdin’ on
Still checkin’ my email… still singin’ this song

Sad blues country