Still Checkin My Email

Verse 1

Alarm clock rings but I ain’t got nowhere to go

Coffee tastes like regret in a chipped old mug, cold

Everybody I know got a badge or a shift

I’m the odd one out, man, I don’t fit

They talk about overtime, Fridays paid in beer

I nod and fake a smile, but it hits me right here

I hate how small I feel just sittin’ around

Like the world’s movin’ fast and I’m stuck in neutral now

Pre-Chorus

I tell myself it’s just a season, it’ll pass

But that voice in my head keeps talkin’ trash

Chorus

I’m still checkin’ my email like it owes me a break

Heart beatin’ heavy every time my phone shakes

Feels like I’m fallin’ behind while everyone’s runnin’ ahead

Tryin’ not to drown in the things goin’ on in my head

Yeah, I hate who I am when I feel this low

Still checkin’ my email, hopin’ someday it says hello

Verse 2

I knew a guy inside that place, thought that meant a shot

Thought this time was different, thought maybe I was not

Just another “thank you” wrapped in corporate regret

“Good luck in the future” — man, I ain’t over it yet

I stared at that screen like it was personal

Like every word it typed just cut me to the bone

Had my hopes hangin’ high on a maybe and a prayer

Guess I was just another name they didn’t care

Pre-Chorus

I shut the laptop, but it’s burned in my brain

That feelin’ of losin’ when you never played the game

Chorus

I’m still checkin’ my email like it might change its mind

Like maybe they’ll realize they left me behind

Feels like I’m fallin’ apart while I’m actin’ okay

Put on a brave face just to get through the day

Yeah, I hate who I am when I feel this low

Still checkin’ my email, hopin’ someday it says hello

Bridge (Blues Breakdown)

Mama says, “Son, don’t measure life by a clock”

But the bills don’t care if I’m givin’ it all I got

I ain’t lazy, I ain’t broken, I just need a chance

But right now all I got’s this six-string and these hands

Chorus (Last, More Emotional)

I’m still checkin’ my email with a drink in my hand

Tryin’ to believe there’s a bigger plan

I ain’t worthless, I ain’t done, I ain’t lost for good

Just tired of feelin’ misunderstood

Yeah, I hate who I am when I feel this low

Still checkin’ my email… hopin’ someday it says hello

Outro

One day I’ll clock in, tell this story with a grin

Say “damn, that was hard,” but I survived back then

Till that day comes, I’ll keep holdin’ on

Still checkin’ my email… still singin’ this song