I Don't Wanna Wake Up

I don’t wanna wake up,

World’s fucked, and I stay stuck,

Heart’s numb, soul’s gone,

She left, now I’m just hangin’ on.

Pain on repeat, stuck on loop,

Same four walls, same damn noose.

I sleep just to not exist,

Dreams lie, real life's a bitch. (ohhhh)

I don’t wanna wake up...

I gave her all my pieces, now I’m empty,

She fucked me up so gently.

Words like knives, and her silence worse,

Smilin’ in pics while I rot and curse.

I write poems in blood on glass,

Still ain’t sure how long I’ll last.

These meds don’t hit, just float me slow,

Eyes open, heart six feet below.

Every “I love you” was fake,

Now I’m gaslightin’ my own heartbreak.

I don’t cry, I just bleed inside,

Hate myself but I still survive. (yeah…)

I don’t wanna wake up,

World’s fucked, and I stay stuck,

Heart’s numb, soul’s gone,

She left, now I’m just hangin’ on.

Pain on repeat, stuck on loop,

Same four walls, same damn noose.

I sleep just to not exist,

Dreams lie, real life's a bitch. (fuck...)

I don’t wanna wake up...

This ain't a song, it's a cry in code,

Slit metaphor drippin' down the road.

I talk to God, he won’t talk back,

Guess even heaven knows I’m cracked.

Look at me—used to smile,

Now I fake every inch of style.

People say “You good?” I lie,

Inside I’m just prayin' to die.

She moved on, I stay buried,

With our pics in a box I carried.

All these texts I’ll never send,

Say “miss you” but I won’t pretend. (nah…)

Ashes in my coffee,

Regrets in my lungs,

Lust in my veins,

Pain in my tongue.

I’d scream but no one hears me,

I’d die but no one fears me.

She was the sun, I’m the void,

Now every love feels like noise.

Fuck this life and every high,

Only peace is when I close my eyes. (ohhhh)

I don’t wanna wake up,

World’s fucked, and I stay stuck,

Heart’s numb, soul’s gone,

She left, now I’m just hangin’ on.

Pain on repeat, stuck on loop,

Same four walls, same damn noose...

I sleep just to not exist...

Dreams lie... real life's a bitch...