Faked

I don't give a fuck

I just don't give a fuck

I just don't want to give a fuck

I just don't give a fuck my life's sticking in the muck and feeling yucky and Chucky is ready to be free from the cage he's held in I just want to grow a sense of compassion and understand of others feeling but the 8 personas don't see that as they all served a different purpose to keep me alive I have no empathy and am just cold and empty.

My life is hectic My mind is skeptical I am like sceptic from the tanks where all the shit goes that's just how my life goes I get blamed for everything and anything because everyone knows they can take advantage of me but when I loose my wrath am to be made to feel bad my math equations don't add up as my numbers are written in blood I can't see to flood the mind with rational thinking it's stinking my ship is sinking.

I always hurt the ones I love after catfishing them from above to gain their trust and their love it's horrible what I do but I can't seem to find another way to keep you or anyone for that matter my life's splattered so am rattling looking for connection and intimate feelings cos I can't seem to gain healing so my fake persona comes forward reels them towards me then fall for me then we move on the real side comes out and am checked out and tapped looking for snout to smoke my brain waves out.

I am fake in every way and when I display the real me everyone runs away or snitches on me what's the problem do I have a hunch back or something am just trying to be kind but I end up knocked down and no crown just the frown I need out this so called town I need to run away and be free for my incarcerated feelings and hurting daily it's like boiling hot gravy my mind is burning like the flames of the throne.

I have no empathy or even sympathy as my emotions were depleted and deleted daily through the brains mail my heads numb heart cold my bones are rigged and my blood is thick my soul is sold to the devil and my head's psychopath is carving the paths and am just doing as am told he dosnt see the world like we do he creeps around and freaks you and also sneaks you and sometimes depletes you.

This is what happens when the mind gets lost into the intrusive thoughts they come to light and predict the fight to smash out the lights my heads numb and am just cold I have no sense of emotional regulation as am suffering internally with my own battles it rattles, sends shock waves through the caves in which I hear echo echo echo so I am fighting every day to keep myself on the straight and when I damage my good lady am fighting some more great I just hate myself and I just need help but I will never stop not giving a fuck as people don't give a fuck about me this young G.

They don't give a fuck

They just don't give a fuck

They really just don't give a fuck

This life is fucked

My head's mucked

I feel yuck and trucked

Bit I don't give a fuck