Splitting

My head's confused and it's feeling abused I am looking to misuse the sedatives again today I have been suspended pending investigation for trying to be caring as no one cared for me I broke the GDPR laws to ensure someone wasn't abused as I have been through the abused so there's no holding back my marriage is at a collapsed state my heart is moving at a fast rate am trying to be straight but am actually not doing great.

Trying to be a good Samaritan has now ruined my marriage man I just can't seem to get control of the Personas in my head so am facing the bill of the perfect life I was destined to have but that's been snapped in half just like my heart and my brain FUCK! THAT! I WANT TO SMACK MYSELF! FOR BEING SO STUPID! but I ain't no Cupid my life's ruined so I have to go solo and start to recognise when the personas are breaking out my eyes.

Being accused of shit I never even done my life is so FUCKING FUN!! but I just have to runaway and get back to the straight but my life is in the hands of fate and the demons have found their bait I started to contemplate suicide again sitting at the edge of the waterfall hoping I black out and fall I don't feel so tall standing at the edge of the cliff looking to jump into the rift so my mind starts to shift as the stabilizer comes into shift the control panel and make me realise what I would be throwing away if I done myself today.

Sitting in the car park of A&E building up the courage to ask them to help me but I have been let down in the past my minds running fast so I called the NHS 24 services and they managed to engage with me and make me replay the events of today to overcome them now I feel swayed to have faith is the services again but that doesn't change my home life I still fucked my life! now my wife is wanting to run away however I don't blame her as she fell under the pressure of the past trauma she buried into her own coma.

I wish I just used my brain so I didn't feel the pain but my caring personas came forward at the time of the incident that's now detrimental to my mind as I don't want this projectile as I feel vile for what I have put my wife through I need to step up and get control of this fuck up ahhh FUCK!! so I just need to remove all traces of the social media services and focus on my music so I can generate my personas in my head and let them rest and lay down I have to move around but my minds in pound town so GAZA frowns as the boys at threat so he steps to the light but this isn't the right fragment so they start clashing ane bashing which inflicts the split of the Personas.

We just have to hope and pray I don't lose my fortune when I am outta tune and I forget the moment so I try to lie as I can't seem to say the truth but there is living proof my mind went spoof.

FUCK ! FUCK ! FUCK ! FUCK ! THERE SPLITTING TODAY FUCK! FUCK! AGHHH YUCK!