Pulse Check

I told ‘em I’m fine—what else would I say?

Practiced that line ‘til it sounds like cliché

My pulse is a playlist, all skips and repeats

I’m killing the vibe just to feel a heartbeat

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Neon haze, and I’m half-awake

Talking loud just to drown the ache

Every smile’s a soft deception

I’m a ghost with good reception

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Pulse check—am I still here?

Hands shake, but I fake cheer

Looks like fun, feels like static

Crowd’s on fire, but I’m automatic

Pulse check—don’t look down

I’m all dressed up to come unwound

If I vanish mid-connection

Just blame it on a bad reception

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I dance like I’ve got something to prove

But I’m just syncing with a glitchy groove

Spotlight’s hot and my drink’s gone warm

I keep my cool like it’s a uniform

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Neon haze, and I’m half-awake

Talking loud just to drown the ache

Every smile’s a soft deception

I’m a ghost with good reception

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Pulse check—am I still here?

Hands shake, but I fake cheer

Looks like fun, feels like static

Crowd’s on fire, but I’m automatic

Pulse check—don’t look down

I’m all dressed up to come unwound

If I vanish mid-connection

Just blame it on a bad reception

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I don’t want attention

I want silence that doesn’t feel like punishment

I don’t need saving

I just want ten minutes where I don’t narrate my own unraveling

Is that too much?

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Pulse check—what’s the cost?

Still glowing even when I’m lost

Looks like bliss, it’s automatic

Dancing on a fault line’s tragic

Pulse check—say it out

Every beat’s a scream in shout

If I vanish, don’t forget

You only noticed once I left