He Was There All Along

[Verse 1]
Chasing every broken mirror
Learning how to love the cracks
Reading every crooked horoscope
Trying to stitch my own map back
Lonely in a crowded stairwell
Listening for something kind
All I heard were echoes of me
Talking circles in my mind
[Pre-Chorus]
How many doors did I lock from the inside?
How many times did I say I’m “doing fine”?
Hands on the wheel
But I couldn’t drive my life
[Chorus]
I was trying to find myself
He was there all along
I was running in the dark
He was humming me a song
I was reaching for the pieces
He was holding up my heart
Trying to find myself
When He had me from the start
[Verse 2]
Stacking all my little idols
Made of fear and borrowed pride
Scrolling till the sun was bleeding
Just to feel a little high
Every secret
Every surplus shame
I thought I had to hide it deep
But You were in the quiet bedroom
Watching over every sleepless week
[Pre-Chorus]
How many masks did I paint just to survive?
How many times did I say I’m still in charge of my life?
Hands clutched tight
But You never left my side
[Chorus]
I was trying to find myself
He was there all along
I was running in the dark
He was humming me a song
I was reaching for the pieces
He was holding up my heart
Trying to find myself
When He had me from the start
[Bridge]
You were in the childhood kitchen (so small)
You were in the empty halls (through it all)
You were in the nights I cursed Your name
Still calling me mine anyway
You were in the shattered silence (soft call)
In the questions
In the fall
I thought I had to climb to reach You
You were seated in my soul
[Chorus]
I was trying to find myself
He was there all along
I was running in the dark
He was humming me a song
I was reaching for the pieces
He was holding up my heart
Trying to find myself
When He had me from the start
[Outro]
I was trying to find myself
You were here all along
Here in every breath I borrow
Here where I belong

pop, Moody alt-pop / dark-pop bed with pulsing sub bass, tight electronic drums, and icy synth pads; verses stay intimate and close-mic’d over sparse keys, pre-chorus rises with filtered arps and subtle vocal doubles, chorus blooms into wide, reverb-drenched art-pop with haunting harmonies and a simple hooky top line; soft lower-toned female vocals, breathy then resolute by the last hook, art pop, soft, female vocals