Searching for the lost light

Silent shadows, heavy hearts, I'm walking through the dark

Lost in the echo of my own voice, a distant spark

Battered by the storms within, trying to find some peace

Fighting to remember how I learned to be released

It's been a while, but the pain still lingers deep inside

Hiding scars not seen on the surface, nowhere to hide

I tried to hold it all together, to stay strong alone

But I felt the weight of abandonment, the feeling I don't own

I whispered apologies to the shadows in my mind

Hoping someday someone might be kind

To understand the tears I hide behind my eyes

The tiredness that I cannot disguise

I'm tired, so tired, of fighting every day

Wishing I could find a way to break away

From the darkness pulling me down, trying to drown

Searching for the light I lost somehow

The mirror reflects a stranger, lost and worn

Each glance a reminder of battles I've borne

I search for a flicker of hope in their eyes

A sign that beneath the surface, strength still lies

Breaking down the walls of silence, piece by piece

Seeking help, even when the pain won't cease

I know I need to reach and trust again

But the scars of hurt keep me in the rain

I trace the lines on my hands, a map of my past

Each one a story of moments that couldn't last

But within these lines, there's resilience too

A reminder that I've made it this far, seen it through

Every step is heavy, but I keep moving forward

Hoping someday this storm will be over

Till then I carry these wounds, silent and true

And pray for strength to start anew