[Verse 1]
Packed my room in cardboard summers
Posters folding at the seams
Group chat buzzing like a warning
Red dots flooding on my screen
“You just wanna start all over”
Typed in anger
Hit and sent
I keep scrolling
Keep on swallowing
Every word you never meant
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to call
The line rang out
Screens are crowded
I’m shut out
Got my ticket
Got my doubt
Got this ache I can’t talk about
[Chorus]
I’m not running
I’m not choosing
I’m just losing what I love
Different school
Different ocean
Doesn’t cancel who we were
If I’m just a name you’re cursing
On the other side of earth
I still save our hallway laughter
Like a picture that still hurts
[Verse 2]
Uniform in softer weather
Different emblem on my chest
You say I’m “acting like a stranger”
Just for trying to do my best
Lunch bell rings and no one’s with me
Plastic table
Empty chair
I would trade these perfect beaches
For one more crowded stair
[Pre-Chorus]
I text “I miss you
” backspace twice
Type “Good luck” like that feels right
You leave me on “seen” all night
Guess I’m easier to fight
[Chorus]
I’m not running
I’m not choosing
I’m just losing what I love
Different school
Different ocean
Doesn’t cancel who we were
If I’m just a name you’re cursing
On the other side of earth
I still save our hallway laughter
Like a picture that still hurts
[Bridge]
Maybe in some later summer (later summer)
You’ll drive past our old front gate
And you’ll think of all our inside jokes
And the way we used to wait
If the anger ever softens
If you ever think of me
I’ll be somewhere in that memory
Where we’re thirteen and we’re free
[Chorus]
I’m not running
I’m not choosing
I’m just losing what I love
Different school
Same old heartbeat
Still remembers how you were
If I’m just a name you’re cursing
On the other side of earth
I still save our hallway laughter
Like a picture that still hurts