[INTRO]
(Low piano loop, vinyl hiss, distant city ambience)
(Soft kick fades in)
I’m up, but I don’t recognize the view
Mirror say I made it, but my soul say “who?”
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[VERSE 1 – J. COLE–STYLE]
(Warm bassline, restrained drums)
Winning while I’m losing pieces of my name
Success feel heavy when it don’t heal the pain
Therapy I can’t afford, so I write instead
Pay the bills, quiet storms living in my head
Trauma passed down like keys to the house
Inheritance wasn’t money, it was stress in the mouth
Survival mode became how I breathe
Hypervigilance dressed up as “drive” and “belief”
Voice in my head sound just like my pops
“Be strong, don’t complain, don’t stop”
Healing feel like betrayal of the wars I survived
Who am I without the hurt that kept me alive?
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[HOOK – DRAKE–STYLE]
(Moody synth pad, subtle vocal harmony)
I’m shining but I’m tired of the glow
Everybody see the win, never see the toll
They love the story, never read the footnotes
I’m healing slow, but I’m scared of letting go
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[VERSE 2 – KENDRICK–STYLE]
(Beat strips back, sharper drums)
Built for failure, blamed when I fall
Neighborhoods reduced to numbers on a wall
Poverty loud, wealth move in silence
Struggle televised, comfort private
Education taught me how to sit in line
Not how to question who designed the grind
Police reports never tell it complete
Ink dry, but they erase the heartbeat
American dream run on insomnia
Burnout baptized as ambition, huh
Memorials replaced the playground swings
We learn death before we learn our wings
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[PRE-CHORUS]
(Rising strings, tension building)
I’m complicit even when I stay quiet
Truth heavy, but silence is violence
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[CHORUS – FULL]
(808s hit harder, wide mix)
I’m making money off the pain I hate
Selling hope while my hope feel fake
Freedom came with somebody else’s chains
Tell me when survival crossed the line to shame
I’m winning, yeah
But I’m bleeding too
Tell me what’s the cost
Of becoming you
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[VERSE 3 – BLENDED FLOW]
(Dark melodic loop, rolling hi-hats)
Funerals before birthdays, that’s the order
Still texting dead numbers like they might answer
Grief don’t care about calendars or clocks
Loss stay loud long after the block
Selling verses from the wounds I got
Fans clap, but the guilt don’t stop
When survival start justifying wrong
How long you swim before you drown in it?
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[BRIDGE – SPOKEN / STRIPPED]
(Beat drops out, room reverb)
They call it growth
But nobody tell you it feels like losing family
Losing versions of yourself
Losing the pain you learned to live with
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[FINAL CHORUS]
(Beat returns fuller, emotional lift)
I’m shining but the scars stay close
Every win carved from something broke
If healing means I change my shape
Let me learn who I am past the pain
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[OUTRO]
(Piano fades, tape stop effect)
I’m still here.
Just trying to be whole.
ReapEternal
