Half of Each

He pours my coffee, says, “Good mornin’, hon.”

Same four walls, same risin' sun.

He means every word he says to me,

But I’m somewhere else he’ll never see.

His name lights up, and I come alive,

He asks how I am, helps me survive.

She’s got his ring, their vows she keeps,

We break promises while they sleep.

I’ve got half a friend, half a fire,

Half a truth and half a liar.

Half of faith and half of needin',

Two halves of love that leave me bleedin'.

Two half-full glasses to sip down,

And I’m still thirsty... when I wanna drown.

I keep the house, I play the part,

But guilt is whisperin’ in my heart.

One says he’ll call when he gets a chance,

The other thinks that payin’ bills is romance.

I told myself I could balance the weight,

But one love’s hollow, and one’s too late.

Thought more hearts could fill the space,

But I’m not me in either place.

There’s no right way to split a soul,

I’m torn in two instead of whole.

Half a friend, half a fire,

Half a truth and half a liar.

Half of faith and half of needin',

Two halves of love that leave me bleedin'.

Two half-full glasses in front of me,

I’ve drank what was in my reach,

And I’m still empty... half of each.

One man’s arms, one man’s voice,

Ain’t no peace in either choice.

Two lives, two loves, too far to reach...

I’m dying slow, with half of each.