[Intro]
Yeah
Fuck…
I’m so tired of this shit
[Verse 1]
I wake up pissed off, life on some bullshit
Heart full of cracks, still act like I’m cool with
Every bitch lie, every promise fake
I gave too much love, now I fuckin’ hate
Pills in my pocket, liquor in my hand
Tryna feel peace but I can’t, goddamn
Thought you was real, turns out you pretend
Stabbed me in the back, then asked to be friends
I don’t give a fuck ‘bout karma or fate
If God got a plan, why mine full of pain?
I scream “I’m fine” but it’s all a lie
I been dead inside since the last goodbye
[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t wanna talk, don’t ask how I feel
Feelings just ghosts and they too fuckin’ real
Heart on mute, brain on loud
Lost as fuck, but I don’t back down
[Chorus]
Fuck feelings, they ruin my head
Fuck love, yeah, that shit left me dead
I drink too much, pop pills instead
If I crash tonight, don’t read what I said
Fuck trust, everyone fake
Smile in your face while they sharpen blades
If I don’t wake, don’t pray for me
I made my bed in anxiety
[Verse 2]
I gave her my soul, she gave me trauma
Now I got issues bigger than karma
Said she loved me, fucked my head up
Left me drownin’, then said “man up”
I don’t sleep much, nightmares win
Thoughts so dark I don’t let ‘em in
I hate myself, yeah, say it again
Mirror talkin’ shit like my fuckin’ friends
Every day feel like survival mode
Heart too heavy, can’t carry hope
If love a drug, I relapsed hard
Now my veins full of broken parts
[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t wanna heal, shit takes too long
I just want peace or a different song
If I disappear, don’t act surprised
I been beggin’ for help in between the lines
[Chorus]
Fuck feelings, they ruin my head
Fuck love, yeah, that shit left me dead
I drink too much, pop pills instead
If I crash tonight, don’t read what I said
Fuck trust, everyone fake
Smile in your face while they sharpen blades
If I don’t wake, don’t pray for me
I made my bed in anxiety
[Bridge]
Tell me why pain never takes a break
Why every good thing turns to fuckin’ hate
I tried to love, I tried to change
Still stuck here drownin’ in rage
[Outro]
If I’m gone tomorrow, don’t act brand new
You watched me bleed and said “you’ll be cool”
This ain’t a cry for help, it’s the truth
I’m fucked up, yeah… now you too