[Intro]
I been bleeding on the page for you
Cold sweat, two a.m., fade for you
Every demon in my head hate you
So I sharpen up my faith like a blade for you (yeah)
[Verse 1]
Ash in my lungs
Love in my veins
Junk in the trunk of my darkest days
I was one more hit from a headstone
Face-down, phone dead, on a cracked road
Mama prayin', I ain't hear that
Dealers callin', I was callin' right back
Then you walked in, eyes like a mirror
Showed me every broken part way clearer
You said, "You don't gotta die to prove you care"
But I'm wired to trade my life like it's spare
I been bargainin' with ghosts in the bathroom
Tryna flush my hurt, flood the damn room
Love feel like a high I can't trust
Lust got me trippin', chasing quick rush
Touch so sweet, brain so rotten
Halo bent, but the heart ain't forgotten (nah)
[Chorus]
Blood on the halo, I been fightin' my fate
Gave all my yesterdays, still showin' up late
If I burn, if I break, I'ma break these chains
For the ones that I love, I can carry that pain
Take my highs, take my lows, take my shame and my rage
Turn my poison into hope, let it light up your way
If I crawl, if I fall, I'ma stand up again
For the ones that I love, I can dance with my sins (hey)
[Verse 2]
Used to keep the bottle by the bed like a best friend
Now it's just a ghost in the trash at the dead end
Talkin' to my shadow in the screen light
Scrollin' through the wreckage of my past like a feed, right
Every like, every body, every late text
Had me searchin' in the dark for a fake bless
Lust on loop, I was losin' my breath
Tryna fill a black hole in my chest
But you put a hand on my wrist, said "Feel that"
"That's a war drum, beatin', you can heal that"
I been clenchin' my jaw, white-knuckle heart
Tryna rip old habits from the roots in the dark
I relapse in my thoughts, not my veins now
Still hear cravings hummin' in the rain clouds
When they whisper my name, I remember your face
And I trade my urge for a little more grace (yeah)
[Chorus]
Blood on the halo, I been fightin' my fate
Gave all my yesterdays, still showin' up late
If I burn, if I break, I'ma break these chains
For the ones that I love, I can carry that pain
Take my highs, take my lows, take my shame and my rage
Turn my poison into hope, let it light up your way
If I crawl, if I fall, I'ma stand up again
For the ones that I love, I can dance with my sins (oh yeah)
[Bridge]
What if I can't be perfect?
What if I crack this crown?
Would you still hold me shaking
When my monsters drag me down?
I been givin', I been givin' till my hands shake (hands shake)
Tryna pour from a heart that the lies break (lies break)
But your voice in the dark say, "Breathe slow
You don't gotta lose yourself just to save souls" (hey)
[Chorus]
Blood on the halo, I been fightin' my fate
Gave all my yesterdays, still showin' up late
If I burn, if I break, I'ma break these chains
For the ones that I love, I can carry that pain
Take my highs, take my lows, take my shame and my rage
Turn my poison into hope, let it light up your way
If I crawl, if I fall, I'ma stand up again
For the ones that I love, I can