[Intro]
Yeah
Tiny circus in my chest
Watch it
[Verse 1]
Woke up in a mood ring
Teeth taste like last night's doubts
Coffee in a chipped blue cup
Staring my reflection down
Crumbs on my notebook page
Plans from a younger me
Thought I'd have a gold-framed life
Got a rented room and therapy (mm)
Friends say "man, you doing fine"
But they never met my brain
It be doing backflips, cartwheels
In a phone booth full of rain (hey!)
Still I lace my quirks like shoes
Step outside and crack a grin
If the world gon' call me odd
Might as well lean all the way in
[Chorus]
These are the sides of my smile
Crooked and bright for a while
Joking on the edge of a spiral
Dancing in denial
These are the sides of my smile
Laughing but I'm walking that wire
Half of me a mess, half fire
Both of them in style (oh yeah)
[Verse 2]
Scroll past perfect breakfasts
Matching outfits, ocean views
I got laundry doing stand-up
On a chair beside my shoes
Mama asking "you eat yet?"
I say "yeah" and change the theme
Truth is, I just bite my tongue
Chew on every little dream
Some days I'm a head-nod hero
Freestyling with my fear
Turn my panic to a punchline
All my ghosts start clapping here (clap)
Other days I miss my exit
Talk myself in quiet tones
Whisper "you not just mistakes"
Till the doubt walks out my bones
[Pre-Chorus]
I been saving every small win
Like receipts inside my phone
Proof that I been inching forward
Even when I feel like stone
[Chorus]
These are the sides of my smile
Crooked and bright for a while
Joking on the edge of a spiral
Dancing in denial
These are the sides of my smile
Laughing but I'm walking that wire
Half of me a mess, half fire
Both of them in style
[Bridge]
[Beat drops to soft drums and warm chords]
Talk light to the kid I was
Tell him, "yo, you more than grades"
More than who just left your message
More than how long love will stay
If my heart play major, minor
Let it clash, let it collide
Every weird and aching color
Painting on the same inside (woah)
[Chorus]
These are the sides of my smile
Crooked and bright for a while
Joking on the edge of a spiral
Dancing in denial
These are the sides of my smile
Laughing but I'm walking that wire
Half of me a mess, half fire
Both of them in style
[Outro]
Yeah, these are the sides, all the sides
If I ever lose my grin, rewind
Hear the joke wrapped around the ache
Watch me bend, not break (hey)