Until This Act

Met you at fourteen, two ghosts learning how to breathe,

You were the anchor in a world that never cared for me.

We shared a roof, shared our fears, shared the nights we'd disappear,

You were my home… even when the home wasn't here.

Then life called your name and you answered it right,

You found love, built a life, chased a brand new sunrise.

I stayed back in the shadows where we used to dream,

Now I'm talking to the walls just to feel anything.

And it’s no fault of yours—

I swear it on the bones I carry every day.

I just didn’t have anyone left

When you finally walked your own way.

So this is the letter I never meant to write,

The words I buried deep in the quiet of the night.

“I’ll always have your back,” yeah, I meant every line—

Even in this act, you were the best part of my life.

I still love you, brother, even through the darkness…

And I’m sorry for this—

I was never meant to be harmless.

You moved away, built a world I always hoped you'd find,

I stayed behind with the ghosts running circles in my mind.

Every laugh we shared echoes like a memory on fire,

A warmth I can't reach as the flames climb higher.

THIS ISN’T BLAME—

THIS IS JUST WHERE I BREAK.

NO FAULT OF YOURS,

JUST THE WEIGHT I CAN’T TAKE.

BUT I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU,

NOT FOR ONE DAMN DAY.

If my voice ever reaches you across the miles,

Know you carried me farther than anyone in my life.

You saved me once… maybe more times than I can say,

And I’m sorry you have to hear me fade away.

So this is the letter I never meant to write,

The truth bleeding out in the silence of the night.

“I’ll always have your back,” yeah, that still holds true—

Even as I fall, my last thought is you.

You were my brother, my shelter in the abyss…

And I’m sorry for this…

I was just too tired to exist.

But you made my story worth the time I was in it.

Don’t forget me…

Not all at once.