Washed up

[Style:]
[Indie Rap / Alternative Pop]
[Moody keys + subtle 808]
[Gradual build]
[Last chorus hits hard emotionally]

[Intro (Spoken / soft)]

Everyone claims they’re the best…
I just don’t wanna mentally be a mess.

[Verse 1]

Everybody says they’re number one
I’m just tryna feel okay when the day is done
Top 25 and I should be higher
But I’d rather be sane than admired

I’ve been dropping “trash” since the start
Just talking ‘bout my spinning heart
Heart on my sleeve, nobody stares
Take a moment — look at what’s there

I’ve grown. I’ve learned.
My message hard to discern
I win and then I relapse
Lose again — yeah those are the tracks

[Pre-Chorus]

I haven’t asked fear for a rematch
I haven’t opened up my scriptures like that
Devil and doubt in the front seat
Gripping the wheel while I sit back

[Chorus]

Do I have the will
To grab the wheel
Turn this car around
Before it crashes for real?

Or am I too tired
To keep writing these tracks
Calling them pitiful
But still coming back?

Will any of this last?
Am I worth it?
Do I deserve it?

[Verse 2]

All my listeners I wanna inspire
But what if the fire’s just a small spark flicker?
What if I peak and fade away
Before I ever get bigger?

I don’t want fame if it costs my peace
I don’t want praise if it steals my sleep
But silence makes me question everything
And that insecurity runs deep

I win one round, then I lose two
Confidence gone by the afternoon
I say I’m fine but that ain’t true
Some nights I don’t know what to do

[Bridge (Stripped)]

I don’t need a crown
I just need control
I don’t need the spotlight
I just need my soul

If I lose the numbers
But keep my mind
Maybe that’s the win
I’m supposed to find

[Final Chorus (Bigger, drums come in)]

Do I have the will
To fight back
To grab the wheel
And stay on track?

I’m not the best
But I’m still here
Still writing songs
Still facing fear

Will any of this last?
Am I worth it?
Do I deserve it?

…Maybe the fact I’m asking
Means I’m not done yet.

Male - Indie Rap/Indie Pop
Moody keys
Subtle 808
Gradual build