Clear the room

Heart feelin’ like it’s gonna jump out my chest

I’m anxious, I wanna scream, get it out of my head

Sleep deprived, overworked, under-slept

Energy low like the way I see myself

I got dishes in the sink, clothes on the floor

Too tired to care, too numb to ignore

I get in these moods, I get in these waves

I write just to breathe through the weight

I been dropping these songs

But they feel like trash

Every word that I say just cuts me back

I wanna feel free

But I feel confined

By a brain that won’t ever hit rewind

I’m trying to love myself

But I don’t know how

Clear the room

I don’t wanna be seen

When I’m breaking down

From the weight on me

I feel too much

But not in the good way

Just sadness stuck

In my bloodstream

Clear the room

Let me fall apart

I’m tired of acting like I’m not this dark

I don’t wanna be numb

I just wanna feel

Something real

I need to be grounded

I need to be okay

I keep saying “positivity”

But my mind drifts away

Late-night thoughts got me pacing the floor

Wondering what all this fighting is for

Am I gonna get better?

More money? More clarity?

Or just more nights

Where I hate being me

Should I focus on love?

Should I focus on growth?

Should I focus on everything

I don’t know

I feel like I’m doomed

Like the light’s fading out

Like February’s already wearing me down

I keep fighting in my head

But I’m losing the war

And I don’t know what I’m living for

I don’t wanna give up

But I’m tired inside

Clear the room

I don’t wanna pretend

That I’m holding together

When I’m near the end

I feel too deep

In a world too loud

And I don’t know

How to calm myself down

Clear the room

Let me be a mess

I’m tired of proving that I’m “my best”

I don’t wanna be perfect

I just wanna heal

I just wanna feel

I don’t need answers

I just need air

I just need someone

To say I’m still here

I don’t wanna disappear

I just want peace

From the war inside of me

Clear the room

I’m still trying to fight

Even when it feels like

I’m losing my mind

I’m not done yet

Even if I’m low

I just need a little light

To help me go

Clear the room

But don’t leave me alone

I’m still holding on

Even when I’m broke

I don’t wanna be numb

I just wanna feel

Something real