Dirty Pain

Rain on the window… but there’s no storm outside
Just a heavy quiet like the world stopped talkin’ back
Phone light flickers at 1%… no charger, no signal
Everything I owe… still awake in my head

Bills don’t sleep
Debt don’t blink
Time don’t wait
And I swear… I hear my own name in the delay of the flight board

Gate 7… delayed again
Same message… different day
But it feel like somethin’ watching me stay stuck here

And I can’t tell if I’m tryna leave…
or if I’m already gone 

But in my I head I hear 
Broke, broke, broke—I can’t cope, no joke
Low balance ghost, every deposit get choked
Hit, then it vanish, like a note in the smoke
Tryna grab it, it’s gone, I’m just holdin’ the hope

Overdraft, overdrawn, overload on the fees
Owe it all, every call got a hold on me
No release, no relief, just a roll of the debt
Whole check gettin’ ate, I don’t hold nothin’ yet

Phone on storage maxed, can’t record, can’t snap
Life feel the same way, too packed, too trapped
Tap, tap, delete, still lag, still crash
Tryna free up space but the past come back

Gate say delay, then they say it again
Same play in my life every day that I’m in
Get close, then it shift, like a glitch in the sim
I’m a step from the win then I fade to the rim

Broke but I’m workin’, every button I press
Every lever I pull, I’m investin’ what’s left
Stretchin’ every second, every breath, every rep
Turn a mess to a method, every loss to a step

Mud on my shoes, had to trudge through the grit
Blood, sweat, tears, I was stuck in the pit
But I dug, didn’t quit, kept a clutch on the grit
Now I’m cut from a cloth you can’t touch or predict

Dark thoughts talk, but I walk with a plan
Spark in the dark, I’ma carve what I can
Scars on my heart, but I charge, I advance
From the start I was marked, now I’m part of the stance

Broke, broke, broke—but I’m breakin’ the mold
No fold, ten toes in the cold, I’m controlled
Every debt, every doubt gettin’ sold, then I’m sold
On the vision I wrote—I can’t stay broke, I won’t

Click, clack, shift—yeah I’m stuck in the gears
Tank on E but I’m runnin’ off fear
Tightrope steps, I been walkin’ for years
One wrong move, everything disappears

Static in my head, but I’m tunin’ it clear
Loose wires spark, now the vision sincere
Built from scraps
Locked in a maze, had to map my route
Dead ends everywhere, still had to figure it out 
I was broke in the dark, now I’m breakin’ it out

I was broke, I was stuck, I was buried 
never let it define what I’m really givin’

Every delay was just time in disguise
Every loss was a lesson I had to survive

I don’t fold, I don’t stop, I don’t break, I adjust
Turned nothin’ into somethin’ just by learnin’ to trust

So if it feel like it’s over, nah, it’s just startin’ to shift
I was down in the mud, now I’m built for this 

And I swear every setback just made me more trained

One day it all gon’ land, all gon’ click, all gon’ show
And I’ll look back at this moment like, “that’s what made me grow”
Like my phone I need space 
I need me 

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