I been quiet but my mind loud
Trying to stand tall but I feel down
Life hit different now I can’t move the same
Got more on my plate I can’t play with the game
It ain’t just me it’s a family I’m facing
Every decision got weight that I’m carrying daily
This house all wood weak beams and it’s shifting
Trying to hold it together while everything missing
I feel like a sitting duck stuck in position
Working all day but it’s like nothing’s clicking
I’m giving my all but it’s not adding up
Hands full of work but my pockets still stuck
Feels like I’m chasing but never catching
Like I’m moving but stuck in the same direction
I don’t like showing when I’m feeling low
But it’s hard when it feel like I’m losing control
I know what I want I just don’t know the road
And it’s killing me slow when I’m moving too slow
You look at me like I got it together
But inside I be fighting through stormy weather
I don’t say it but I hope you see
Everything I’m doing is bigger than me
I’m not where I thought I’d be
But I’m still trying every day
I been fighting through the pressure
But it don’t always go my way
I know nobody feel this
When I’m stuck and feeling lost
Trying hard but nothing changing
Like I’m paying every cost
But this ain’t just for me
It’s the life we trying to reach
You the reason I keep pushing
Even when it’s out of reach
I been on my own for years just working without a guide
Trying to turn something real but I don’t know how to climb
Now I got more on the line I can’t afford to stay blind
Trying to build something strong while I’m fixing my mind
This house like me still standing but barely holding
Trying to fix every crack while the pressure unfolding
Same way I’m learning to build I’m learning to love
Even when I feel stuck I’m not giving up
I know I ain’t perfect I’m learning as I go
Trying to be something better than anything I know
I might look lost but I promise I’m close
I just need time to become what I’m supposed
I been changing I can feel it
Even when I don’t show it
Everything I been through built me
Now I’m trying to control it
I’m not where I thought I’d be
But I’m still trying every day
I been fighting through the pressure
But it don’t always go my way
I know nobody feel this
When I’m stuck and feeling lost
Trying hard but nothing changing
Like I’m paying every cost
But I’m doing this for us
Even when I feel stuck
I’ma build it from the ground
Even if it take my luck
I been quiet but I’m locked in
Even when it look like nothing
I’ma turn this into something
I’m not stopping I’m becoming
I know it don’t look like it right now
I know it feel like I ain’t moving
But I swear I’m trying
I swear I’m not sitting still
It just feel like everything around me slow
Like I’m pushing and nothing moving with me
But I see it
Even if nobody else does
I see what we could be
I see the life we supposed to have
I see us I see family
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