[Verse 1]
Another night, same whiskey glass,
Same lies I tell so no one asks.
I laugh it off like it don’t hurt,
Bury the truth deep in the dirt.
But this heart’s a loaded gun,
And it’s shaking in my chest, son.
These feelings I can’t shoot down,
They’re screaming but I make no sound.
[Pre-Chorus]
I bite my tongue till it bleeds,
‘Cause love’s a wound that never leaves.
And every word I never said,
Is echoing inside my head.
[Chorus]
I swear I’m fine — I’m not.
I say I don’t care, but I’m caught.
I built these walls like they’d protect me,
But they just trap what’s left of me.
I wanna say fuck my feelings, but I can’t stop,
‘Cause my heart’s too full, it just won’t drop.
Yeah, I swear I’m fine — I’m not.
[Verse 2]
I light a smoke, pretend I’m tough,
But that’s just code for “I’ve had enough.”
You ever love so hard it breaks you?
So deep inside it remakes you?
I keep my love behind my teeth,
Like secrets I’ll take underneath.
But it’s burning holes through my pride,
Every truth I’ve tried to hide.
[Pre-Chorus]
I drink to drown what won’t die,
Love’s a ghost that don’t say goodbye.
And I’m haunted by what I feel,
For someone who’ll never know it’s real.
[Chorus]
I swear I’m fine — I’m not.
I say I don’t care, but I’m caught.
I wanna scream to the heavens I love you,
But silence is the only thing I can do.
I wanna say fuck my feelings, make it stop,
But this heart don’t listen, it just won’t drop.
Yeah, I swear I’m fine — I’m not.
[Verse 3]
There’s a ring of smoke where hope once was,
Ashes on my tongue from what love does.
Every “maybe someday” turned to “never mind,”
Every “I’m okay” just kills me inside.
I talk big like I don’t give a damn,
But I’d break down if you took my hand.
I’m the king of keeping pain in line,
But it’s eating me alive this time.
[Bridge 1]
There’s thunder in my rib cage,
Lightning in my veins,
And I smile through the heartbreak,
Like it ain’t driving me insane.
Every “I’m okay” I’ve ever said,
Is a lie dressed up in red.
[Breakdown Verse]
So here I stand, under these stars,
Cursing love for all these scars.
I’d give my heart if it meant a damn,
But love don’t care who you really am.
And I’m stuck between the scream and the sigh,
Between letting go and asking why.
If loving you means I fall apart,
Then I’ll break — but I’ll call it art.
[Bridge 2]
They say time heals, but time’s a liar,
Just fuels the hurt, just feeds the fire.
And I’m so tired of pretending I’m strong,
When I’ve been breaking all along.
[Final Chorus]
I swear I’m fine — I’m not.
This love’s the war I never fought.
I’m tired of bleeding through a grin,
I’m tired of hiding what’s within.
I wanna scream your name till the stars drop,
But my pride won’t let my heart stop.
Yeah, I swear I’m fine — I’m not.
No, I swear I’m fine... but I’m not.
[Outro]
So here’s my truth, raw and rough,
I act hard ‘cause love’s too much.
If silence is the price I pay,
Then I’ll die with what I can’t say.
Yeah, I swear I’m fine,
…but I’m not.
