[Verse 1]
You left in a hospital whisper
I answered with nothing to say
Your boots by the back door waiting
Like you'd just walk in someday
Mom keeps your jacket hanging
Tag still scraping the wall
I tried to step into your shadow
It swallowed me whole
[Chorus]
I’m trying to carry what you couldn’t
Hold up the house while I fall apart
Got your name tattooed inside my chest
Every breath a borrowed spark
Stumble and shake under all this weight
But I’m not breaking
I’m bending straight
Hands up
Heart bruised
I’m crawling back to grace
Finding you again in the faith I chased away
[Verse 2]
Your truck still smells like sermons
Coffee stains and Sunday notes
I cuss and I pray in the same breath
Driving roads you always drove
Some nights I bark at the heavens
Ask why you were called first
Then I hear that line you’d throw me
“Son
Seek the kingdom first”
[Chorus]
I’m trying to carry what you couldn’t
Hold up the house while I fall apart
Got your name tattooed inside my chest
Every breath a borrowed spark
Stumble and shake under all this weight
But I’m not breaking
I’m bending straight
Hands up
Heart bruised
I’m crawling back to grace
Finding you again in the faith I chased away
[Bridge]
I thought I had to be you
Steel jaw
Steady eyes
Never cry
But all this pressure cracked through
And the only thing left was a fragile “why”
On my knees in the quiet kitchen
Floor cold
Dishes in the sink
I finally said
“I can’t lift this”
And heard
“You don’t have to
Give it to Me”
[Chorus]
I’m done trying to carry what I couldn’t
I’ll hold what I can and I’ll let go the rest
Got a cross where the weight was crushing
And a scar where it marked my chest
I still stumble and shake under all this weight
But I’m not alone when I bend and break
Eyes up
Heart new
I’m running back to grace
Finding you and Him in the same wide
Open place