[Verse 1]
Laugh in the mirror
Teeth feel sharp
Jawline shaking
Hands on my heart
Phone full of smiles
Head full of static
One wrong word
I turn volcanic
Bite my tongue
Taste rust, taste sugar
Every little joke
Feels like a trigger
I wanna forgive
I wanna explode
Both feet planted
In the middle of the road
[Chorus]
I’m stuck in the crack of a grin and a scream
Split my smile, tear the seams
Half of me soft, half gasoline
I don’t know which side I believe
Do I let it go, do I burn it all down
Halo crooked on a rusted crown
Laugh or break, I can’t choose
Happiness or anger, I’m bound to lose
[Verse 2]
Friends say “chill”
I say “sure”
Thumbs type peace
My chest wants war
Scroll through pictures
We look so fine
But I remember
Every crossed line
I bury the fire
Under bright small talk
But it claws my ribs
Every tick of the clock
Smile like armor
Eyes like a blade
Light and the dark
Sharing one face
[Chorus]
I’m stuck in the crack of a grin and a scream
Split my smile, tear the seams
Half of me soft, half gasoline
I don’t know which side I believe
Do I let it go, do I burn it all down
Halo crooked on a rusted crown
Laugh or break, I can’t choose
Happiness or anger, I’m bound to lose
[Bridge]
Maybe both are real
Maybe that’s my truth (my truth)
Golden cage of calm
Bars of brutal proof
If I choose rage
I torch what I need
If I choose joy
I choke on the bleed
[Chorus]
I’m stuck in the crack of a grin and a scream
Split my smile, tear the seams
Half of me soft, half gasoline
I don’t know which side I believe
Do I let it go, do I burn it all down
Halo crooked on a rusted crown
Laugh or break, I can’t choose
Happiness or anger, I’m bound to lose