Ashes in My Veins

[Intro]
I been trading in my heartbeat
For a little bit of numb each night
Say I’m doing it for my people
But I’m feeding my own fight (yeah)
[Verse 1]
Red eyes, blue bills on the table
Two lies, one mask, I’m unstable
I swear, “I’ma quit,” that’s the fable
Then I’m right back lit, Cain and Abel
Love you
But I fiend that rush
Kiss you
But I chase that crush
I’m the
Hero and the hit, too much
I’m the
Wound and the blade that cuts
Tryna pour from a glass that’s broken
Tryna talk but my throat keeps choking
Say you first but my hands keep holding
Every habit that keeps me frozen
[Chorus]
I gave my soul to keep you safe
Burned my wings to light your way
Now I’m fighting in the flames
(Still calling your name, your name)
Love, lust, and the hunger pain
All my demons wearing my face
If I break, will you still stay?
Or just watch these ashes in my veins?
[Verse 2]
Bad nights, I’m alone in the kitchen
Cold tiles, got my pulse still twitching
Phone lights up, you miss my calls
I miss myself, that’s the real addiction
Pop off, then I black my screen
Lock jaw, tryna crush that scream
Every promise I made, half-clean
I keep bleeding between my scenes
I put food on the plate, that’s facts
But I’m starving inside, relapse
Yeah, I’m carrying the crew on my back
But I’m digging my grave with that
You see halos, I see handcuffs
You see “love,” I feel “stand up”
‘Cause if I fall, will I stand once?
Or just drown in the flood I brung? (hey!)
[Chorus]
I gave my soul to keep you safe
Burned my wings to light your way
Now I’m fighting in the flames
(Still calling your name, your name)
Love, lust, and the hunger pain
All my demons wearing my face
If I break, will you still stay?
Or just watch these ashes in my veins?
[Bridge]
Who am I when the highs fade out?
When the house goes dark and the lights cut out
If I lose that edge, will you still be proud?
Or am I just a mask in a messed up crowd?
I’m scared of the quiet, scared of the mirror
Chasing the chaos to feel something clearer
If loving you costs everything I am
Will you love me back when I’m less than a man?
[Chorus]
I gave my soul to keep you safe
Burned my wings to light your way
Now I’m crawling from the flames
(Still calling your name, your name)
Love, lust, and the hunger pain
All my demons wearing my face
If I fall, can I be saved?
Or am I just ashes in my veins?

rap, Hybrid trap-rock / glitch-hop banger with male vocals; tense piano and detuned bells in the intro, then distorted guitars layered over punchy drums and growling house/future bass drops. Verses spit in a tight, double-time pocket with glitchy vocal chops answering lines; chorus explodes with shouted gang vocals and wide synth leads. Bridge strips down to filtered 808s, distant reverb, then final chorus slams back in at full power., rock, hip hop, glitch hop