[Verse 1 – Quiet, broken tone]
Dear me, it’s 3AM again
Staring at the ceiling like it holds the truth
I’m tired of the silence screaming back
And lying to the mirror in my youth
You held it all together with tape and teeth
Played the clown so no one asked
But you can’t laugh forever
When your smile’s cracked
[Pre-Chorus – Tension rising]
You said “I’m fine” so many times
Even you started to believe the lie
But behind those jokes and half-assed grins
You’re barely holding the line
[Chorus – Explosive, melodic desperation]
Dear me—I’m not okay
And it’s getting harder to fake it every day
These thoughts don’t knock, they just invade
They don’t leave when you pray
Dear me—I know you’re scared
But no one heals by pretending they’re repaired
You’re allowed to fall apart
And still be worth the heart
[Verse 2 – More specific pain, raw details]
Remember when you begged God in the shower
To let you vanish down the drain?
Or when you smiled at your own reflection
Just to feel something insane?
You told your friends you’re just “a little tired”
While screaming in your skull
You buried every panic attack
Behind playlists, pills, and alcohol
[Pre-Chorus – Second build, heavier]
You hid the notes you’ll never send
Drafted your funeral in your head again
But writing pain in verses and rhymes
Is the only reason you’re still alive
[Chorus – Bigger, more melodic]
Dear me—I’m not okay
I keep choking on the words I’m scared to say
But maybe if I scream it loud
It’ll echo in the fray
Dear me—don’t fade tonight
Even broken stars still light the sky
You’re allowed to cry alone
And still find your way back home
[Bridge – Spoken/slammed/confessional]
You don’t have to earn your breath
You don’t need permission to survive
You’re not a burden
You’re alive
And that’s enough—for now
That’s enough
[Final Chorus – Slow start, explodes into final cry]
Dear me—I’m not okay
But I don’t have to throw myself away
I’ll write this song instead
So someone else won’t end up dead
Dear me—please don’t let go
Even when it hurts more than they know
You’re allowed to be a mess
And still be worth the rest
[Outro – Soft, fading]
Dear me…
You’re still here.
And maybe that’s brave.
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