They don’t tell you…

Verse 1

They don’t tell you the world keeps asking you

To heal a body that still remembers life

Your hands still ache to carry something

Your arms still reach in the middle of the night

They don’t tell you your body doesn’t know

That heaven came instead of home

It still prepares, it still gives

Like she’s supposed to be here to live

Verse 2

They don’t tell you the pain of milk coming in

With no mouth to feed, no cry to answer

Every drop feels like betrayal

Of a love that had no chance

I press my chest and I break apart

Because my body did its part

And I would give anything—anything

For it to have been hers

Pre-Chorus

This isn’t just grief

It’s motherhood with nowhere to go

Chorus

They said I would’ve been a great mother

But I didn’t want would’ve been

I wanted sleepless nights and lullabies

And loving her till the end

I didn’t want sympathy or lines to say

I wanted my baby here

I didn’t almost become a mother

I am one—and she is my daughter

Verse 3

They don’t tell you your husband becomes

The one who keeps you breathing

Holding you while your body mourns

Something deeper than believing

Jordan sits with me through the nights

When I wake up screaming out her name

He holds my heart when it’s breaking open

So I don’t face it alone in the pain

Verse 4

They don’t tell you about 3 a.m.

When the grief comes without warning

When I clutch her little blanket

Like it could bring back the morning

I cry so hard my throat burns out

Begging God just one more chance

To feel her weight, to feel her warmth

To live the life we never had

Pre-Chorus

They don’t tell you love doesn’t stop

Just because the world thinks it should

Chorus

They said I would’ve been a good mother

But I wanted to be one

I wanted scraped knees, bedtime prayers

And birthdays in the sun

Don’t tell me she was spared the pain

When I am living hers every day

I didn’t lose a possibility

I lost my child—my Evalina

Bridge

My body grieved her

My heart still does

Motherhood didn’t end

It just learned to hurt without touch

Every tear proves she was real

Every ache proves she belonged

Love this deep doesn’t disappear

It just carries on

Final Chorus (quiet, breaking)

So don’t tell me what I would’ve been

Or try to make this right

Just sit with me in what I lost

And say her name tonight

I was her mother from the start

From the first beat to the last breath

And I will love her for the rest of my life

And beyond… even death

Outro

They don’t tell you how to survive this

Because no one should have to know

But I am still her mama

And I will always be her home