Goodbye?

I gave up on giving a fuck

I gave in, Cause it was never enough

~be the nice guy, and see where it gets you

Turn the other cheek, and see what hey give you ~

you can keep your two cents, I’m already broke

I’ll just keep on feeding your ego

hoping that you choke

so many things about my life that I wish I could change

but no mater how devouted to the plan, they always stay the same

so am I just not that great a man

or am I just bad at playing the game

maybe it’s time for me to just fold my hand

just cash in my chips and walk away

walk around with my head held low

and choose to have nothing to say

I spend every day fighting for all the people around me

but it’s starting to feel like all their issues revolve around me

and that’s when my deamons jump in and try to surround me

and that’s when I fall to my knees

and wonder if I’ll ever be free

and mamma you know I love you to death

but for dear god stop now and don’t read the rest

I’m afraid it would be way to much weight on your chest

and you don’t deserve to live you’re life holding your breath

they say it’s do or die but I’m just done doing

I know that it’s a lot to swallow but I’ve done a lot of chewen

I never really thought I could be that kind of man

but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have a plan

I’m not saying that I’m giving in and walking away

but I really need to believe that there’s a better way

but then I feel you’re tiny arms around my neck

I don’t wanna keep driving the car when I feel like a wreck

but I suppose that if I claim to love you to death

then i owe it to you to fight for ever last breath

I’m sorry baby, i don’t want you to see your daddy cry

but i hope to god that you never have to understand how hard I’ve had to try

just to stay alive

but because of you I’ll always have a reason to try

on the days that I can’t eat and i can’t sleep

but the lord and the devil knows I can drink

when my patience wears thin and im on the brink

is when I look into your eyes and remember that I have a promise to keep