I gave up on giving a fuck
I gave in, Cause it was never enough
~be the nice guy, and see where it gets you
Turn the other cheek, and see what hey give you ~
you can keep your two cents, I’m already broke
I’ll just keep on feeding your ego
hoping that you choke
so many things about my life that I wish I could change
but no mater how devouted to the plan, they always stay the same
so am I just not that great a man
or am I just bad at playing the game
maybe it’s time for me to just fold my hand
just cash in my chips and walk away
walk around with my head held low
and choose to have nothing to say
I spend every day fighting for all the people around me
but it’s starting to feel like all their issues revolve around me
and that’s when my deamons jump in and try to surround me
and that’s when I fall to my knees
and wonder if I’ll ever be free
and mamma you know I love you to death
but for dear god stop now and don’t read the rest
I’m afraid it would be way to much weight on your chest
and you don’t deserve to live you’re life holding your breath
they say it’s do or die but I’m just done doing
I know that it’s a lot to swallow but I’ve done a lot of chewen
I never really thought I could be that kind of man
but I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have a plan
I’m not saying that I’m giving in and walking away
but I really need to believe that there’s a better way
but then I feel you’re tiny arms around my neck
I don’t wanna keep driving the car when I feel like a wreck
but I suppose that if I claim to love you to death
then i owe it to you to fight for ever last breath
I’m sorry baby, i don’t want you to see your daddy cry
but i hope to god that you never have to understand how hard I’ve had to try
just to stay alive
but because of you I’ll always have a reason to try
on the days that I can’t eat and i can’t sleep
but the lord and the devil knows I can drink
when my patience wears thin and im on the brink
is when I look into your eyes and remember that I have a promise to keep
