Remembering you

it's been a while

since I looked in the mirror with a smile

since I drove without crying for miles

since a song didn't upset my day

since I bowed down to Jesus to pray

it's been awhile

after I work I stay home

each night, I don't feel alone

after I drink, I'm okay

hoping this pain goes away

stories from the past start to fade

losing track of the memories made

family and friends checking in

to make sure I'm hanging in

I don't remember my life

before

I was remembering you

yes, I lost myself

since I've been remembering you

getting better at faking each day

so the hugs and the stares stay away

facing the world by myself

with my heart and my soul on the shelf

trying my best to get by

hiding when I need to cry

praying that there'll be a time

this mountain won't be so hard to climb

every step seems to equal a mile

won't quit cause that's not my style

I will get better someday

I know I'll find a way

I don't remember my life

before

I was remembering you

yes, I lost myself

since I've been remembering you

I will always be remembering you