it's been a while
since I looked in the mirror with a smile
since I drove without crying for miles
since a song didn't upset my day
since I bowed down to Jesus to pray
it's been awhile
after I work I stay home
each night, I don't feel alone
after I drink, I'm okay
hoping this pain goes away
stories from the past start to fade
losing track of the memories made
family and friends checking in
to make sure I'm hanging in
I don't remember my life
before
I was remembering you
yes, I lost myself
since I've been remembering you
getting better at faking each day
so the hugs and the stares stay away
facing the world by myself
with my heart and my soul on the shelf
trying my best to get by
hiding when I need to cry
praying that there'll be a time
this mountain won't be so hard to climb
every step seems to equal a mile
won't quit cause that's not my style
I will get better someday
I know I'll find a way
I don't remember my life
before
I was remembering you
yes, I lost myself
since I've been remembering you
I will always be remembering you