I'm different

From as long as I can remember starting as young as five I knew I was different just didn't know why? Always full of energy i couldn't control it or the trouble it would bring me,I loved playing by myself for hours on end,daydreaming was my favorite thing in my world. I know nobody gets me and I know some people don't like me cause sometimes I say what is on my mind usually the truth but it's not meant to hurt you, I can't,I really can't help saying what I'm thinking it's something inside me. I recall fourth grade when the school bully finally found me an easy target began to tease me and I held it back and held it back and then he said some things, I didn't like and I flew into a rage I couldn't stop when I was done and realized I whooped someone twice my size, it hurt me to hurt someone even though they had it coming, through the years I learned alot about me and a thing called adhd and sometimes it is so hard impossible at times, looking back I was treated bad lord forgive em they didn't know,I wonder sometimes in bed late at night thinking about everything age of five but I remember everything all the time god it never stops it's my mind it won't slow down it won't stop but many years later I know and I see it's a thing called adhd sometimes it's so hard just to be me help lord so I can see you you expect from me