I used to dream of calling you daddy by Lost on the spectrum - Zona

I used to dream of calling you daddy by Lost on the spectrum - Zona

Lyrics

Aaaaah oooooooooh

I used to dream about calling you daddy.

divorces happen all the time

but you moved very far away

and cut me out of your life

you got a new wife

the son you always wanted

there was no room for me

that's OK I understand

life goes on

I used to dream about calling you daddy

I had never had the chance to use that word

years passed

one day

I saw you standing outside my door

I ran to you with open arms

happy to see you

I got to spend a couple of summers with you

I wanted you to love me,

but for you,

it was impossible

you told me you could never love me

the way you loved your son

I used to dream about calling you daddy

and you, you felt i needed to know

that my daddy didn't love me

how was I supposed to deal with that

when I was 12 years old? (I didn't know how to feel)

i tried so hard to be your daughter

but I was always just a guest at your house

every time I tried

to get to know you

you cut me out of your life

I didn't hear from you for years

and when you felt an ounce of guilt (I guess)

you just showed up

and I let you back into my life (no questions asked)

I used to dream about calling you daddy

I always welcomed you with open arms

Oh ooohooohooooh aaaaa

as I grew up,

I thought we were starting

to get a little bit closer

I believed you might have started to love me a bit

I didn't need much ( never asked for anything more)

I was still dreaming about calling you daddy

when I got the news that you had died

it was sudden,

No one was prepared

well, maybe you were

you weren't even buried

when a lawyer told me

you had recently

completely cut me out of your will

I had never asked you for money

I just wanted you to love me

but you felt the need to show me

that you could never ever

love me

just like you told me

when I was 12

[Outro]

I used to dream about calling you daddy

you wanted me to know

I wasn't loved

I didn't know how to deal with that

when I was 12 oh o o oh

I didn't cry at all at your funeral

I couldn't shed a single tear

and now I don't know how to deal with that

O o o o

Oh lalalalalala la la la