I used to dream of calling you daddy

Aaaaah oooooooooh
I used to dream about calling you daddy. 
divorces happen all the time
but you moved very far away 
and cut me out of your life
you got a new wife  
the son you always wanted
there was no room for me
that's OK I understand 
life goes on
I used to dream about calling you daddy
I had never had the chance to use that word
years passed 
one day
 I saw you standing outside my door
I ran to you with open arms
happy to see you
I got to spend a couple of summers with you
I wanted you to love me,
but for you, 
it was impossible 
you told me you could never love me
the way you loved your son
I used to dream about calling you daddy
and you, you felt i needed to know 
that my daddy didn't love me
how was I supposed to deal with that
when I was 12 years old? (I didn't know how to feel)
i tried so hard to be your daughter 
but I was always just a guest at your house
every time I tried
to get to know you
you cut me out of your life
I didn't hear from you for years
and when you felt an ounce of guilt (I guess)
you just showed up
and I let you back into my life (no questions asked)
I used to dream about calling you daddy 
I always welcomed you with open arms 
Oh ooohooohooooh aaaaa
as I grew up,
I thought we were starting 
to get a little bit closer
I believed you might have started to love me a bit
I didn't need much ( never asked for anything more)
I was still dreaming about calling you daddy
when I got the news that you had died 
it was sudden,
No one was prepared 
well, maybe you were
you weren't even buried
 when a lawyer told me 
you had recently 
completely cut me out of your will
I had never asked you for money
I just wanted you to love me
but you felt the need to show me 
that you could never ever 
love me
just like you told me
when I was 12
[Outro]
I used to dream about calling you daddy 
you wanted me to know
 I wasn't loved
I didn't know how to deal with that
 when I was 12 oh o o oh
I didn't cry at all at your funeral
I couldn't shed a single tear
and now I don't know how to deal with that 
O o o o 
Oh lalalalalala la la la

Female voice, storytelling, soft Melancholic,Emotion,Dark dreamy soul,dreamy trance