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I’ve been counting scars instead of sheep

Five times I tried to fall too deep

January’s cold, but not like me

Frozen in the pain they never see

You said love, then turned away

Left me in the mess you made

Now I wear this grin like paint

Hiding all the quiet rage

Why do good hearts bleed alone?

Why's the silence feel like home?

I laugh like nothing's wrong, pretend I'm fine

But this smile looks better broken every time

Everyone says "you’re so strong"

But strength ain't real when nights feel long

I scream inside, but the world won’t hear

They only see what I make appear

Gave my best to someone cruel

Now I’m drowning in this room

Playing brave, but I’m so tired

Choking on my own desire

Why do good hearts bleed alone?

Why's the silence feel like home?

I laugh like nothing's wrong, pretend I'm fine

But this smile looks better broken every time

Maybe love’s not made for me

Or maybe they just couldn’t see

But if I fade into the night

Would they even know I died inside?

Life is rough, I won't deny

But I keep living—don’t know why

They see the mask, not the fight

I’m still here… at least tonight

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