Lies

I know way more than you think that your friends influence you would just be a hoe and I can be mad at me. That’s just a game and do it all again. Won’t even give a chance to become friends if I just do it all over again, I swear to God Fuck you I don’t want you you try to keep everything you get. Love you try a lot on my face, but I know more than you know all your friends are some birds and the influence should be a hoe. I can’t keep on playing that’s just a game and that’s how it goes. Play me just the game. That’s how I go. You’ll probably go find you another man and do it all over again I’ll never give a bitch if she has to do it again because if I let a girl close, I’ll do it again if I take another heartbreak, I swear this will be the end I won’t be there. I called them kisses didn’t mean Jack fuck you hoe. I don’t want you back? Fuck the presence fuck all those kisses fuck all those trips fake fuckery I can’t be mad at you playing me. It’s just a game that’s how it goes. I can’t take another heartbreak. It will be the end. You try to keep everything you did on the low lie in my face like I didn’t even know gas light me up and turn it on me. Lie lie I don’t even know why try try try walking away right now learning how to be alone. I think it’s time for some healing. I’m out the way right now. Learning to be alone.im done done hiding all my feelings I’m just trying to heal em every day taking care of every one who’s taking care of me i’m taking care of myself. I’m having battles with me. I’m having battles with faith. Try not to segregate. What if his paying is too heavy I can’t hold it chip on my shoulder. I can fix it, but if it’s too broken all my emotions.

I wanna talk to someone, but I feel that nobody relates The only value I have is what I provide. You find a way to twist it and always tell me lies. You never see me how I see myself. Your reflection is reflection to me. Look at yourself. I stay on the fence cause you’re always on attack like a monkey jumping on my back. I need somewhere to take my mistakes. Don’t want my family to see me cry why I try they’ll never know I’m carrying all this weight all this pressure trying to provide. I got crossed out about people who said they love me. I got stabbed out from people who tried to hugged me always running back with your hands out, when you just say fuck me that’s why I keep the fire I put you on the news steadily working playing with tools glued together just like you and your boo i’ve given up this time. It hurts when I’m alive. Use to be asleep by 10 now I’m trying to spin add it up and win stay face down in the pillow that the only way you win let me catch your man up the fire told you I would tweek out and spin fuck it we can run it again