[Verse 1]
Left your coffee on the counter
Lipstick on the porcelain
You were humming in the doorway
I was staring at my phone again
You asked me if I'd missed you
I laughed like it was nothing
But every joke I ever threw
Was just a way to keep from loving
[Chorus]
Now I'm scared of the man I used to be
The one who held you close and still felt free
I watched you pack your heart and take the key
Left alone here with the man I used to be
(oh, the man I used to be)
[Verse 2]
I see your sweater on the chair back
Haven't had the guts to move it yet
There are dents along your pillow
Like your shadow never left
I was busy being distant
Busy trying to feel strong
Funny how it took you leaving
To know I got it all wrong
[Chorus]
Now I'm scared of the man I used to be
The one who kissed your doubts to let you breathe
He disappeared the night I chose my pride over your tears
Now I'm living with the man I used to be
(yeah, the man I used to be)
[Bridge]
If I could hold that August evening
Take your hand and stay this time
I would trade my favorite stories
Just to rewrite one goodbye
[Chorus]
'Cause I miss being the man I used to be
Before I turned your trust into debris
If you ever find a way to forgive what you see
Maybe I could meet the man I used to be
Or learn to love
What’s left of me