[Intro]
Knees heavy
feel the floor bend
Breath shallow
like it wants to end
Hear the knock
at my front door
[low vocal register] I don’t wanna go
I don’t wanna go
[Verse 1]
Death stalkin’ in my hallway
shadows movin’ like they know my name
Heart racin’ like a car crash
I been swervin’ in the oncoming lane
Pills in the sink
blood in the mirror
I stare at my face
till it disappears
Scroll through my contacts
nobody answers
Guess I’m alone
with a thousand cancers
[Pre-Chorus]
Screaming out loud
but it feels like static
Every “are you good?”
just automatic
I’m breakin’ in pieces
you can see through
If I fall right now
would it reach you?
[Chorus]
Save me, save me
someone please save me
Knees heavy, feel death
knocking, going crazy
Hands up to the ceiling
but it’s caving
I’m screaming out loud
but nobody, nobody hears me
Save me, save me
someone please save me
[Verse 2]
I wear jokes like armor
laugh so they don’t see scars
Turn pain into punchlines
then cry alone in the dark
Mama called, said, “answer”
I hit decline, then curse
‘Cause I’d rather lie, say “I’m fine”
than tell her it hurts
Got a blade in my brain
that keeps twisting
Every bad choice
on a loop, re-listened
If there’s a God
why’s the volume so low?
If you’re really out there
why you watchin’ me choke?
[Pre-Chorus]
Screaming out loud
but it feels like static
Every “are you good?”
just automatic
I’m breakin’ in pieces
you can see through
If I fall right now
would it reach you?
[Chorus]
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[whispered vocals] I don’t wanna die
I just want the pain to stop
I don’t wanna jump
I just want off this rooftop
[growled] Heart in a headlock
lungs full of fire
If hope is a habit
I lost my supplier
If you feel this too
you ain’t cursed alone
We can turn this hell
into something like home
[guitar solo]
[Chorus]