Close my door

Verse 1]

Close my door, I’ll let the smoke fill the air,

Let it crawl through my lungs like it’s all that’s there.

Whispers float through the cracks of my name,

They don’t see the fire, they just laugh at the flame.

Empty bottles stare from the edge of the bed,

The walls keep the secrets I’ve left unsaid.

I’m tired of fighting this war in my mind,

I’m begging for help, but they’re all blind.

They laugh while I fade, think I’m just playing around,

But I’m breaking in silence, I’m sinking, I’m drowned.

I reach for the light, but the dark pulls me in,

And they still think it’s funny — this pain that I’m in.

Every word feels heavier than the last,

Each night I pray but the feeling won’t pass.

I take these pills just to quiet the sound,

Of my thoughts getting loud, spinning me down.

“Bro, you’ll be fine,” yeah, that’s what they said,

But they don’t see the blood my heart has bled.

I’m choking on truth while they’re breathing in lies,

They can’t hear the scream in my tired eyes.

They laugh while I fade, think I’m just playing around,

But I’m breaking in silence, I’m sinking, I’m drowned.

I reach for the light, but the dark pulls me in,

And they still think it’s funny — this pain that I’m in.

Close my door, don’t knock tonight,

Let the smoke hide my losing fight.

The ash falls slow, like my last try,

Another lost soul they’ll ask “why?”

They’ll post my name, say “gone too soon,”

But they never saw the quiet doom.

I cried for help, they just looked away,

So I closed my door…

And I slipped away.

(guitar fades into silence)